Why Superman is One of the Top Gay, Queer and Kink Icons

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By now, so much has been said about Superman and his legacy in 20th and 21st-century culture, but I will go ahead and say the obvious anyway: Superman is a gay and queer icon.

We all know it's true. And by "we," I mean the culture at large—not just queer people.

And yet, many people refute this phenomenon. The people who panic and become enraged when we talk about the queer resonance of the character created in Action Comics by Jerry Siegel and Joe Shuster are folks who seek to erase the existence of queer people and the way they contribute to culture as a whole. That makes those haters homophobes and transphobes.

If you gatekeep superheroes in order to protect your heteronormativity and close-mindedness, good luck, because you have never had any control over them. And you never will. Superman is a piece of art, and art's subjectivity means you can't touch the way it resonates or connects for other people.

A Massive Impact on Queer Culture

Photo Copyright Cesar Torres

Superman’s impact on queer culture is rooted in a very obvious "closet allegory," where his double life and secret identity mirror the lived experience of "passing" and the performance of heteronormativity. This subtext is reinforced by creators Jerry Siegel and Joe Shuster's own status as marginalized outsiders. As the children of Jewish immigrants, Siegel and Shuster channeled their experiences of social alienation into a character who must navigate a world that doesn’t fully understand his true nature.

Furthermore, Shuster’s specific artistic sensibilities—heavily influenced by the "physique culture" and bodybuilding magazines of the 1930s, as well as his later anonymous work for the fetish publication Nights of Horror—infused the character with a hyper-masculine, "camp" aesthetic that serves as a site of both aspirational power and queer desire. Ultimately, this intersection of a "hidden" self and a theatrical, skin-tight costume has allowed the character to transcend his straight origins, evolving into a symbol of queer resilience that emphasizes the performance of identity and the rejection of domestic conformity in favor of a radical, alternative existence.

Detailed analysis of these cultural parallels can be found in Eric Berlatsky’s study on homosociality and triangular desire and J. Drew Stephen’s exploration of camp aesthetics in the Man of Steel’s cinematic history.

A Brief Word About the Costume

Christopher Reeve’s in the film adaptation of the comic

There is also an inherent gay and queer sensibility in the costume of Superman. It's bold, colorful, and skintight—not afraid to celebrate his massive chest, thick legs, muscular glutes, or any part of his body. His costume is as free of shame as his nakedness would be. Since the character's creation, the costume has been drawn in such a way that today we associate spandex with images of Superman. Most intellectuals won't name it, but I will: there is an erotic allure to his costume. It's no surprise his leotard and red trunks show up so often in the erotic imaginations of all kinds of people, including myself.

I have donned the Superman costume many times. You can see it in my Cosplay Archives, but also in my digital photo set, Ice and Leather.

Superman Resonates Loudly in Kink Spaces

Superhero Fetish Meetup at International Mister Leather 2019, Photo by Cesar Torres

If I were to name one fictional character that shows up the most in queer kink and leather culture (as well as cis/het kink culture), it would have to be Superman. We now live in an age of amateur porn, OnlyFans, and JustForFans, and it's easy to see the emblematic blue leotard, red trunks, yellow belt, and stunning red cape show up over and over in erotic scenes. People from all walks of life stage these as a way to embody power exchange, using the very stories of the character. In many of these videos, short films, erotic drawings, and AI-generated art, fans show Superman being subdued by kryptonite, Lex Luthor, or other villains, mirroring the beats of the comics, TV series, and films.

I have been a member and leader in leather and kink spaces for twenty years, and it delights me to see Superman motifs and costumes show up at places like MIR, IML, Darklands, and many more.

Photo Copyright Cesar Torres

Most journalists, writers, and academics are much too afraid to name this phenomenon of fans eroticizing Kal-El. That's were I come in. I write, live, and breathe superhero fetish. I can not only name my own fetish for Superman, I can describe for you how he tends to turn on so many queer folks I have met over the years. It will come as no surprise that whenever I have posted photo sets of myself in a Superman costume, I receive DMs and private requests for more—specifically, photos where Superman is bound, gagged, and punished. That's because the Superman character activates archetypes within ourselves that cannot be silenced.

What Superman Did for My Own Queerness

There is nothing wrong with erotic fantasies about Kal-El. Superman after all, helped me investigate my own queer and gender identity a long time ago. He helped me understand the dynamics of living in the closet, and in that sense, I parted ways with him many years ago—first when I came out as gay at 21, and again when I came out as non-binary in my late forties. Yes, Clark Kent still lives in a type of closet, but I don't. Today, I feel much closer to a Magneto, who emphatically does not have a secret alter ego. In terms of a superhero who aligns with my gender experience, I feel much more aligned with Mystique than the limiting confines of masculinity that Superman exists in.

And yet, I have much love for Superman, whose muscular and ethical beauty still dazzles my imagination.

Do I still play with Superman when I engage with other kinksters? You bet. That's the beauty of art, story, and roleplay. We can revisit characters, deconstruct them, destroy them, and even rebuild them as part of play.

Superman Keeps It Queer

The reason I wanted to publish this essay is that what I do here at HTKS—as the creator of a unique set of novels for queer people who want superhero stories—is rooted in love and support for my community. I love the kink and leather communities, where Superman is still emblazoned on many people's presentations as a way to be fiercely queer. There's truth and beauty in that. It is important to remind ourselves that Superman also belongs to us. No matter how much homophobes and transphobes may hate us, we know something special about Superman and Clark Kent. Nothing can change his status as a gay and queer icon.

The World Without Daylight Spandex Suit: A Superhero Cosplay Memory

Photo Copyright Cesar Torres

Back in 2014 when I launched World Without Daylight, the second book in the How to Kill a Superhero tetralogy, I wanted to represent the book through shape, color and fabric. I wanted a superhero suit that embodied the book.

I was lucky enough to know Shane Sprankel, a member of the kink community who loved my book series, and who also loved spandex superhero suits. Shane had already designed and tailored a suit for the first book in the series, and when I asked if he could work on the sequel, he said yes.

About the Cover

This is the original cover of World Without Daylight, the second book in the HTKS series. Designed by Nick Agin.

This red, white and black cover is actually the original cover of the paperback. However, I soon replaced it with the version you see today on Amazon and on my web stores. Nick Agin, a designer I met in New York City, designed this stunning cover that was inspired by thrillers from the 1960’s and their colorful graphic design. However, once I started working on Transformation Fetish, the third volume, our mutual schedules and needs prevented us from him designing all four covers. So what you see in today’s superhero confession is a bit of a vault item for the fans of the series who were there in the early years.

The Suit

Photo Copyright Cesar Torres

I wore this suit to Comic Con, several events in NYC and a few leather contests. I loved the pop-art stylings of the suit, and since I am partial to the superhero trunks as part of a look, it delighted me to wear the red spandex over the black leotard.

How I Feel Now

Photo Copyright Cesar Torres

I no longer own this suit. When I trimmed my collection, I parted ways with it. When I see these photos I feel pride in my books, in my Aztec multiverse, and I also feel a touch of sadness. My work habits were out of control in those years. I was a true workaholic, and I don’t miss that part of myself. But I do feel a lot of joy in seeing these old photographs of the suit, shot at home in my apartment in very natural settings. They reflect a love of cosplay, ny superhero fetish, but most importantly, they reflect my artistic collaboration with Shane, who is both kind and creative.

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The Stefan Pendley Effect: Why I’m Choosing Archetypes Over Cosplay and Spandex Hoarding

I recently received a question during an Instagram AMA asking me about my favorite "supersuit." The truth is, I’ve culled nearly my entire collection. This wasn't a snap decision; it was a strategic move of self care to align my physical space with my creative mental health.

The Loneliness of a Cosplay Collection

In Book 2 of How to Kill a Superhero, we meet Stefan Pendley. He lives alone in a stunning, luxurious house in Australia, surrounded by one of the world's most expensive collections of superhero gear. It’s so abig and amazing that in fact Stefan’s nickname in the series is “The Skin Collector.” While his cosplay palace looks like a dream on the surface, writing Stefan’s loneliness affected me deeply over the years. He uses these suits to fill a void—to play at being something he isn't quite ready to be in real life. He uses this suits hoping he will be able to connect better with people, yet he is quite lonely.

I realized I didn't want to live in Stefan’s world. I didn't want my home to become a museum of "potential" versions of myself.

This is a rendering Cesar created to imagine what Stefan Pendley’s dazzling superhero spandex collection would look like in World Without Daylight. Copyright 2025

Superhero Photography & The Future

To be clear: I am not "done" with the hero and villain imagery I am known for. I am still fascinated by superhero and villain archetypes. I am more open than ever to new photography projects and creative collaborations that explore these icons. If you are a cosplayer, photographer, illustrator or videographer and you want to collaborate with me on new projects, contact me.

But my relationship with the stuff has changed. I am no longer interested in the "hoard." I want to be selective, careful, and intentional. I want to step into a suit for the art of the shot, and then step out of it without the weight of a growing collection in my closet.

Going forward, I am always glad to borrow, rent and temporarily build suits, looks and cosplays that help me tell stories about heroes and villains. As you know, satire and a critical lens toward the psychological damage we often incur as fans of superhero stories must be expressed from within the community. That’s where I come in. I can hold two opposites at the same time: I can still keep my love for heroes, villains and their spandex, while at the same time amplifying my voice as a critic about these stories and images from the past century and a half in popular culture. That makes me both similar and different than my own hero, Alan Moore. And that’s because superhero stories are part of queer identity, and they have helped many queer people survive and come out of the closet. I can honor that positive aspect while also suggesting to the world that there’s other stories beyond heroes in tights that we need to tell in order to mature and grow.

The Spandex/Pantyhose Crossover

If you’ve read my recent post abut hoarding on my Lord of the Flowers blog, you know that I’ve been thinking a lot about the generational trauma of hoarding. Culling my collection was my way of breaking that cycle before it started.

I’m moving on, not by leaving the archetypes behind, but by making sure they don't own me.

Vogue’s Fag of the Year

Copyright Cesar Torres, 2025

Today I bring you a brand-new piece of photo art to close out 2025. Recently I have been re-visiting my roots as a journalist and writer, and I wanted to explore magazine layout and typography to constellate ideas about superheroes and consumerism culture. And as I was going through my own catalog of cosplay photos, I decided to take one of my studio shots and turn it into a magazine editorial titled “Vogue’s Fag of the Year.” Just like I did with my Lexcorp photo series, this image uses satire and irony to express ideas. And since Miguel O’Hara is cononically straight in the Marvel comics while at the same time Spider-man as a symbol embodies many aspects of queer identity, I thought, “let’s do this.”

Spider-Gwen as a Queer Icon and My Non-Binary Journey

Copyright Cesar Torres, 2025

For queer folks like myself, cosplay allows us to explore and play with gender. In my case, my gender-bent cosplays from my How to Kill a Superhero era helped me define my own non-binary coming out and gender experience.

What Is Non-Binary Gender Identity?

Non-binary gender identity is the umbrella term for the gender identities of people who don’t identify with the sex they were assigned at birth. Non-binary identity falls outside the traditional binary of man or woman, encompassing people who may identify as both, neither, or a fluid mix of genders. While the term has gained significant modern visibility, non-binary identities are not a contemporary "trend"; they have deep historical roots across various cultures, such as the Two-Spirit people in Indigenous North American societies, the Muxe in Mexico, and the Hijra in South Asia, all of whom have recognized third-gender roles for centuries. To represent this diverse community, Kye Rowan designed the non-binary pride flag in 2014, featuring four horizontal stripes: yellow for those whose gender exists outside the binary, white for those with many or all genders, purple for those who feel a mix of male and female, and black for those who identify as agender. In recent years, the visibility of non-binary identities has reached a mainstream peak through influential public figures and artists such as Sam Smith, Demi Lovato, Janelle Monáe, and Utada Hikaru, all of whom have used their platforms to challenge traditional gender norms and advocate for broader social acceptance.

Spider-Gwen Is not Canonically Enby but Is a Queer Icon

Image via Sony Pictures

While Spider-Gwen (Gwen Stacy) is not canonically non-binary, she has emerged as a powerful queer and transgender icon, particularly following the release of Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse. This status is rooted in a rich layer of "queer coding" and visual subtext that many fans interpret as a trans allegory. In the film, Gwen’s private world is adorned with supportive imagery, most notably a "Protect Trans Kids" flag hanging in her bedroom and a trans pride pin on her father’s police uniform. Beyond these physical symbols, the film utilizes a striking color palette of pastel pink, blue, and white—the colors of the Transgender Pride Flag—which wash over the screen during pivotal moments of her character arc. Her narrative journey of hiding a secret identity from her father, the fear of his rejection, and the eventual "coming out" scene where she reveals her true self, mirrors the real-world experiences of many LGBTQ+ youth. By blending these aesthetic choices with themes of self-discovery and familial acceptance, Spider-Gwen has become a symbol of resilience and visibility, allowing queer audiences to see their own struggles and triumphs reflected in a mainstream superhero.

How I Came Out as Non-Binary and Ditched Pablo Greene

During the COVID pandemic, I started to see my gender-bent cosplays in a new way. They expressed what I feel about myself: I have never felt male. Or female. I do know I carry energy of both male and female, but for the most part, I feel that those energies often conflate with culture and societal norms that are often derived from social constructs. If anything, I feel that my gender is something beyond male and female. It’s also why I have always used the word queer to describe myself, since I came out thirty years ago.

As I came to these realizations of my gender, I was also writing a manuscript about a non-binary teen who has to rescue his mother in the jungles of the Yucatan. Though I ended up never publishing that book, the manuscript revealed to me something that was emerging strongly: the need to celebrate my gender identity with pride and no apologies.

As a tertiary outcome, I also stoped using the pen name and public persona Pablo Greene a couple of years ago. I found him to be way too gendered. He no longer fit me. I stayed with the name I was assigned at birth, Cesar. That’s also the name I use on the rest of my published novels. The name itself is gendered, but in everyday life I play with new ways of writing it in a non-binary style. These new variations are XR and CSR. All caps. For now, they work. I do love the name I originally got, but since I don’t feel part of the binary, I would never dream of using the female version of Cesarea. This is jut further proof to me that gender identity for all humans is extremely individualized and must be carefully explored by the self.

The Photo Session

I took this original photo in my Chicago studio with a seamless gray backdrop, but in 2025 I made a new edit with the non-binary pride flag as a new reworking of the project. It brings both the image and my own intent up to date, and let’s face it, a dull gray back drop is boring.

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From the Archives: Shave Your Head Bald Like Lex Luthor

Copyright Cesar Torres (2020)

Time to take a journey back in the time machine to 2020, when I made a tutorial for my Patreon subscribers for cosplayers who wanted to become Lex Luthor. The most interesting aspect to me about this video in my Pablo Greene era is that I would eventually go on to embrace shaving my head bald hardcore. Since then, I have been shaving my head daily. I can’t go one day without it, and I love the look for me. It’s been very gender reaffirming also; I came out as non-binary about 3 years ago.

Why I Brought This Back

I like to bring back some of my old YouTube videos for fans who request it. I got DMS asking me to bring this one back to the web site!

Yeah, It’s Cringe to Me

I cringe playing this video back to myself now. Some of the production values were quire nice for a YouTube content creator, but I think the pacing of the video is too slow, and overall, I feel some type of cringe watching it. Now that I move differently as an artist with projects like Our Lord of the Flowers, I definitely struggle to look back at some of my earlier work. But if you found this archival clip entertaining or relevant, please tell me!

From the Archives: Guess Who???

Copyright Cesar Torres (2020)

Today I want to share with you a never-before-released photo of my own take on the Riddler. The Riddler is near and dear to my heart, because symbolically, he embraces ambiguity. Ambiguity is built into the world view of human beings: we will never know all the answers.

About the Process

I shot this on a Sony mirrorless camera in my home studio, using a timer. I edited in Lightroom and Photoshop. 

What This Image Means to Me

This image definitely captures a lot of my own personal essence in the pose, facial expression, and stance. This image was shot and produced at the beginning of the COVID era, so I can also detect a lot tension in the final composition. That is good. An image should capture a moment in time.

From the Archives: Bearded Superman Chats In Bed

Copyright Cesar Torres (2020)

In this archival ASMR video from 2020, Cesar Torres steps into the role of Superman, but this time, Superman’s got a shaved head, and he helps the viewer achieve a relaxed, cozy state of mind. Perfect to play in the background before going to sleep. This ASMR performance blends superhero mythology, queer intimacy, and sonic storytelling to reimagine the dynamic between hero and viewer.

Revived here as part of the ASMS Archives, it highlights the ways Torres’ early character studies of power and transformation would later evolve into the How to Kill a Superhero novels and photo art.

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If you enjoy this work, you can support its continuation by purchasing books and apparel from the HTKS web store or by sending a direct tip via PayPal. Your support helps keep queer art and storytelling alive.

From the Archives: Tarantula ASMR

Copyright Cesar Torres (2020)

In this archival ASMR video from 2020, Cesar Torres steps into the role of Tarantula, the masked villain from the Spider-Man universe, to explore the tension between dominance, captivity, and desire. Originally part of the How to Kill a Superhero YouTube era, this ASMR performance blends superhero mythology, queer intimacy, and sonic storytelling to reimagine the dynamic between hero and villain.

Revived here as part of the ASMS Archives, it highlights the ways Torres’ early character studies of power and transformation would later evolve into the How to Kill a Superhero novels and photo art.

Support the Artist
If you enjoy this work, you can support its continuation by purchasing books and apparel from the HTKS web store or by sending a direct tip via PayPal. Your support helps keep queer art and storytelling alive.

From the Archives: Lex Luthor ASMR

Copyright Cesar Torres (2020)

In this archival ASMR video from 2020, Cesar Torres reimagines the villain Lex Luthor through a queer and introspective new angle. Originally part of a series of supervillain-themed videos from the How to Kill a Superhero YouTube era, this piece merges sensual sound design, costume performance, and narrative play to explore the psychology of power, control, and transformation.

Revived here as part of the ASMS Archives, it offers a rare look at the early creative universe that evolved into the novels and art of How to Kill a Superhero.

Support the Artist
If you enjoy this work, you can support its continuation by purchasing books and apparel from the HTKS web store or by sending a direct tip via PayPal. Your support helps keep queer art and storytelling alive.

Review: Fantastic Four, First Steps by Disney

I have always loved the Fantastic Four costumes, and here’s a personal photo in their iconic blue and white spandex. Photo by Cesar Torres

I still get requests from readers of How to Kill a Superhero to share my thoughts on current superhero series and films. My review style is short and sweet, because I am not a movie critic, nor a specialist in film. But I am a novelist, photographer and artist, and I do feel like sharing the way I experience current superhero films.

Film Still via Disney

About the film

The Fantastic Four: First Steps is a retro-futuristic, 1960s-styled reboot of Marvel’s First Family in which scientist-astronauts Reed Richards, Sue Storm, Ben Grimm and Johnny Storm — now a more domesticated superhero team — must defend Earth from the cosmic menace Galactus and his herald Silver Surfer, even as Reed and Sue’s expectant parenthood raises personal and moral stakes.

It offers a strong through line about family, sacrifice, and unity — themes that are broadly relatable and emotionally grounded.

As for speaking particularly to queer audiences: the film does not appear to foreground queer identities or relationships explicitly, so it likely won’t resonate as a “queer story.” However — the emphasis on found-family, resistance to public pressure, and redefining what it means to belong or to protect loved ones are themes that can feel meaningful to queer viewers. If you like, I can list a few recent reactions from queer reviewers to see how the film lands among queer audiences.

I Experienced it at Home

I did not see this film at the cinema. I streamed it on the Disney+ app. At home, I enjoyed its epic visuals, the pretty great sound editing, and its colorful, 60’s, Jack-Kirby inspired art direction. I was also able to slow down a few times, rewind to view specific scenes, and take my time enjoying this product and piece of superhero art.

My Thoughts on Its Plot

This is primarily where this film fails. The plot is paper thin, if you ask me, and although the stakes are sold to us as if they are really high, it felt contrived.

The intro of the film aims to establish the conflict and the characters, but it was incredibly clunky and low-tension. It’s not until the F4 team is on its way to discover Galactus for the first time that the film truly begins. The rest of the film was full of many plot holes and WTF moments. The plot was structured mostly to prop up set pieces and not characterization. Compared to Infinity War, Civil War and other MCU hits, this film felt very mediocre. We do know this film will be a building block for the next big event in the MCU Secret Wars, but it mostly felt flat, lackluster.

Lack of Chemistry Between Reed and Sue

I didn’t feel there was any true on-screen chemistry between Reed and Sue Richards. They did not have that intensity as a couple (and parents) that I remember from the comics. Instead, their dynamic felt more like that of co-workers. And in terms of sexual chemistry between Sue and Reed, I felt zero as a viewer.

The Thing Had the Best Story

The flirtations between Natasha Lyonne’s character Rachel Rozman and The Thing was honestly the best part of this film. In fact, I feel that telling just their story alone would have been an absolute banger. They had chemistry. They had conflict and also a sense of place. And yet, we only get a few minutes of this charismatic pair on screen. This just goes to show that Disney and its directors are only focused on profit, product testing as a way to drive plot, and merchandizing. But what I crave as a viewer are real stories of relationship. The best relationship in this film was that of Rachel and the Thing’s.

Costume Tradeoffs with Disney

I have discussed at length over the years the way that Disney has chosen to flatten out and cheapen the costumes of many superheroes and villains since the MCU ramped up, and the iconic costumes of this superhero family really came off as mediocre. After all, we must remember that when it comes to spandex, the Fantastic Four did it many decades ago. What we got in this film were a few unique looks, including space suits, woolen jumpsuits and branded gear, but wow was it lacking any sense of originality or sexiness. For those of us who love seeing male characters in spandex, it was utterly disappointing. And the irony is that Reed Richards needs very stretchy gear because of his superpowers, and yet we got costumes that looked bulky, flattened muscles, and in many scenes didn’t even look real. This movie is a skip for those of us who like our superheroes to be sexy.

Is It Worth Watching?

I think you can skip this one. I hope its further tie-in to the next MCU phase can help it recover, but First Steps was dull as hell.

Why I Got Rid of My Spandex Cosplay Collection

Photo of Cesar Torres in their photo studio, shot in 2020. Copyright Cesar Torres

It's been a few years since I wrapped up my How to Kill a Superhero book series. The first book, A Gay Bondage Manual, was published in 2013, and the fourth and final book, Gold, in 2018. From 2013 through 2022, I generated thousands of photographs that explored my own Mexican identity, queerness, superhero and villain archetypes, and more. Through my work as a novelist and photographer, I explored my own identity while also taking a point of view about the stories of gay and queer folks who grew up with superheroes as a way to survive and validate ourselves.

About two years ago, I decided to retire my vast collection of superhero costumes. I effectively closed the chapter of my artistic and kinky life where I centered superhero cosplays. The principal reason I made this choice is because of my own personal growth. With my four How to Kill a Superhero books, I have said what I needed to say about both the positive and negative aspects of superhero obsession through a queer lens. And yet, I never lost my passion for my own personal superhero fetish, and it still thrives today. Superheroes are still a huge turn-on for me, but my artistic and kink focus has shifted into new projects like Our Lord of the Flowers.

I recall sitting inside my storage area in my photo studio in 2021, surrounded by plastic crates full of custom spandex suits, masks, tights, dance belts, boots, body paint, and visors, and realizing that this was no longer the right environment for me. I no longer wanted to curate such a large personal collection. By my count, I had about 50 custom suits, as well as many other garments, accessories, and custom pieces in storage. In total, my collection added up to something like 100 custom looks. So I decided to get rid of my collection.

Many of my readers and fans of my Pablo Greene persona often ask me what happened to my costume collection. Today, I answer that frequently asked question for you.

The Driver Behind the Change: Grief

It's important to share from the heart, and in my case, retiring my costume collection was a direct and healthy outcome of grief. Between 2020 and 2022, I experienced grief in multiple dimensions. The main source of grief was from having wrapped up the series of four HTKS books. I loved writing the books, but they also took a toll. I also experienced grief over world events—like the COVID epidemic, the brutality of American police, the further descent into fascism, and the declining reading habits of people.

My relationship to the archetypes of comic book heroes and villains had changed. The costumes still fit me like a glove, but the stories they contained no longer fit me. I wanted to move on not just as a person, but also as a collector. I wanted a certain type of freedom from myself.

Photo of Cesar Torres in their photo studio, shot in 2020. Copyright Cesar Torres

Sold Many Suits to My Readers

I sold most of my costumes to my readers at very low prices in my store. That was extremely fun, because each time I sold one, I got wonderful emails from readers who had purchased them. They loved the HTKS books, and I’m happy I was able to give them something they really wanted to remember the mutual journey we went on as artist and audience.

I Also Made Kink Gifts

In the world of kink and leather, gifting to younger or less experienced members is a well-known tradition. I gifted a few of my suits to folks who were just starting to experience the kink and leather community. Most of these gifts were accessories, like my Flash cowls, Spider-Man mask shells, and Shazam belts. I’m happy they went to good homes.

Many Things Went to the Trash

This is the most important aspect of what happened to my collection. The difference between being a collector and a hoarder can sometimes blur, and I was worried that I had so many costumes, yet I was no longer photographing them or wearing them in scenes or in public. As I sold off the best parts of my collection and gifted a few items to queer leather folks, I also found myself holding onto many bodysuits and superhero costumes that were too worn out to sell—just a lot of stuff.

So I made a final move that helped me the most: I threw out the remainder of my collection. This may sound sacrilegious to some, but this was my choice to make. I wanted a physical and symbolic transformation, and it was important to start with a clean slate.

To this day, I no longer have any superhero cosplays in my gear collection. I still have other items, and I still engage in superhero play with other kinksters, but I have truly moved on into my newest chapter.

What Happens Next Here on This Web Site?

I have thousands of archival images that I shot inside and outside of my photo studio. Over the next year, I will bring these images to you via this website, my newsletter, and also as digital photo packs for purchase. I’m not against modeling for new photos, but I don’t want to accumulate superhero skins the way Stefan Pendley collects them in the HTKS books.

For me, what matters most is that my novels explored Roland and the Golden Man, and I have the closure I need now that the book series remains in the marketplace and readers continue to find community here on this website.

A Photographer’s Memory: Superboy in August of 2019

Superboy cosplay by Cesar Torres, 2019.

Today I want to take you back to a series of Superboy cosplay photos I shot in my photo studio in 2019. This was a different time, before COVID would change the world, before the collapse of many systems. I want to revisit this creative process so you can see how these images turned out the way they did.

Why Superboy?

To me, Superboy has always invoked images of innocence and naivety. Superboy embodies the archetype of the Fool, visible in the Fool tarot card. This is not an insult to Superboy or his intelligence. It simply means that this hero has yet to encounter his rites of passage, or in some sense, his own failings that life will bring.

I chose to slip into Superboy’s spandex suit for fun as a way to embody this character for my fans, back in summer of 2019. I had purchased this cosplay from the web site Hero’s Time, which used to sell thousands of custom superhero suits, made to order. That web site is now gone, presumably gone out of business. It’s now a memory more than anything.

As a Mexican artist with a beard, I knew that my look as Superboy would go against cultural expectations about the comic book hero. That was my choice to make.

Below you can see one of the final shots from that session.

Superboy cosplay by Cesar Torres, 2019.

The Gear and Method

For this shoot I chose sunglasses, to add a touch of mystery and flair, as well as a soft nod to leather culture. I shot this image in my home studio using a Sony NEX-5T camera and some LED lights and reflectors. I used seamless paper, and I shot the images with a timer. This approach to self portraits continues for me to this present day, even though I work with new setups and cameras. I still enjoy the sense of the timer ticking down and giving myself usually 10 seconds to hit the pose.

Superboy cosplay by Cesar Torres, 2019.

The Edits

This image was edited in Adobe Lightroom and Photoshop. The only retouching I did was to erase a few stray beard hairs. The end result is a studio shot that I was able to share out with my Patreon subscribers. Since then, I have left the Patreon platform so I can reach you here through my web site directly.

Superboy cosplay by Cesar Torres, 2019.

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Back In Spandex, Back in the Fight

Back in Your Inbox, Back in the Fight

I missed you. A lot.

I stepped away from the Muscle & Spandex newsletter in 2025 because life came at me fast. I spent the year caring for a family member with cancer. In April, my father died. The same day he had the heart attack that killed him, I was laid off from my day job. All of this unfolded against the fascistic slide we’re living through. I’m in Chicago; when ICE swept our streets, kidnapping people and violating human rights, I did what I could to resist with my community.

It’s heavy stuff. But there’s also lots to be grateful for. 2024–2025 also brought real wins. I transitioned LED Queens from retail into services—branding and strategy for LGBTQ/BIPOC businesses—something I should’ve done sooner. I got my creative drive back and put in serious work on two books: Hall of Mirrors (out in 2026) and Our Lord of the Flowers. Art is life. I’m grateful to still be here making it.

And no, I didn’t forget my superhero and villain crew.

Coming 2026: How to Kill a Superhero, Second Edition

The How to Kill a Superhero tetralogy has been going strong since 2013. More than a decade later, I want to give it the polish it deserves. In early 2026, I’ll launch a fundraising/Kickstarter campaign to produce second editions of all four books with:

• New cover art

• New introductions in each volume

• Cleaned-up interiors and typography

• (Stretch goal) An omnibus paperback collecting all four books

If you want to support the second edition—or you have specific requests for this refresh—send me an email. Your notes will shape what gets made.

Our Lord of the Flowers Is Live

If HTKS gave you everything you wanted from superheroes, spandex, and BDSM, Our Lord of the Flowers (OLF)brings a new obsession: spandex, pantyhose, masks, and psychedelia—a standalone queer kink novel with a literary edge.

The book follows Sir Vitrum, a Chicago leatherman cleaning out his late father’s hoarded house while navigating gender, fetish, mysticism, and the leather family he’s built. If you loved the raw sexuality of HTKS, this will speak to you.

• Read the first chapter free

• Visit the OLF FAQ

• Browse the free Fall 2025 photo gallery

I’m now fully independent as an author and entrepreneur. If you want to help OLF take off, please subscribe to the free newsletter, shop the store, or—best of all—tell your friends and lovers.

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Author Cesar Torres Returns with Our Lord of the Flowers, a Bold New Book of Queer Kink Erotica

After a hiatus that began in early 2021, author Cesar Torres is set to re-enter the literary world with a fresh, boundary-pushing work, Our Lord of the Flowers. Known for the compelling queer superhero narrative in the How to Kill a Superhero series, Torres’s new novel promises an innovative exploration of BDSM, fetish, and queer identity, all set against the backdrop of Chicago in 2025.

Reflecting on the Hiatus

Since their semi-retirement announcement in February 2021, Torres has navigated a period of personal challenges, including a short stint with an autoimmune disorder and the demands of caregiving for a parent facing cancer. These experiences brought unexpected but necessary time away from writing. “It was a painful period,” says Torres, “but also one of reflection and renewal, ultimately bringing fresh inspiration and creative direction for the next phase of my work.”

Introducing Sir Vitrum

At the heart of Our Lord of the Flowers is Sir Vitrum, a retired kink podcaster and leatherman who is grappling with the grief of losing his father. During the day, Sir Vitrum takes on the task of cleaning his father’s hoarded house, and at night he seeks solace in the sensual and thrilling world of leather sex, kink, and fetish. But as he tackles the endless piles of papers, trash, and hoarded objects, he encounters a supernatural entity singing haunting songs from within the walls of the house. Sir Vitrum’s world is rocked when he learns two leather persons in the Chicago community have recently been murdered. Against his own will, he is drawn into investigating the murders while at the same time unearthing family secrets buried within his parent’s hoarded house.

This book intertwines the waking world with a dreamlike exploration of identity and desire, echoing the stylistic choices made in How to Kill a Superhero but with greater directness and even bigger thrills.

Exploring New Themes and Fetishes

In Our Lord of the Flowers, Torres expands the exploration of kink beyond the familiar territories of spandex and bondage to delve into themes of deep submission and gender identity. This novel acknowledges kinks and fetishes that often remain unrecognized in mainstream queer erotica, emphasizing a journey of self-exploration and consciousness. Readers can expect a murder mystery that pushes boundaries and encourages deep reflection on their own identities.

Nods to the Past

Fans of the How to Kill a Superhero series will find familiar elements in this new work, including Easter eggs and cameos, including Roland from the earlier series. Torres’s signature writing style incorporates Aztec gods, and in Our Lord of the Flowers two more gods enter the story, just as the god Tezcatlipoca permeated the original How to Kill a Superhero series in the 2010s.

A Shift Away from Superheroes

Torres acknowledges that saying goodbye to the superhero genre in 2021 was a significant shift. “I have already said and written everything I needed to say about superhero fetish in How to Kill a Superhero. Since the release of that series, I have come out as non-binary and probed deeper into my own identity. In other words, I have moved on to explore my own kinks in a deeper way.” This evolution is evident in the novel’s departure from cape, tights and comics, and now Torres is venturing into the realms of hardcore leather, body modification, D/S dynamics, lingerie, muscle fantasies, pantyhose, bondage, and body modification—along with a few more surprises.

A New Chapter Begins

This new novel will begin releasing for free next week as a serial on Torres’s new Patreon site, Our Lord of the Flowers. Once the serial is complete, it will be available as a paperback and e-book. The book’s chapters will be accessible for free on Patreon, and subscribers can upgrade to a paid subscription for bonus material such as podcasts, fetish pinup photos, and more.

Launch

The first chapter of Our Lord of the Flowers drops on Patreon next week on November 11, 2024. In the meantime, you can reach out to the author on Instagram and X. Please feel free to join the Patreon as a free member, and if you want to seek more value, you can always upgrade later. Enjoy the book.

The Problem with Patreon, and Why I am Leaving their Platform

Today I am writing to you to alert you to cumulative problems that have been developing on the platform Patreon over the past three years. I have been a client of the Patreon platform since 2017. Over the years, I tolerated many of those issues because I needed to make money as an artist to survive, and back then, the company seemed to have  benign intentions. But the problems have become more frequent and chronic, just as the Patreon platform has also transformed into a corporate entity that is moving away from being a grass roots organization. Patreon has raised $90 million from investors, and it is valued at $1.2 billion. They have raised $255 million as of September 2020. Back in 2019, CEO Jack Conte told CNBC that the company’s business model would have difficulties maintaining a profitable business model unless it made changes. In 2019, Tech Crunch analyzed this challenge, and also forecast that an IPO could be part of Patreon’s future. Fast forward to 2021: the company is said to be planning to go public later this year, and the forecast of what will happen to independent artists and content creators like me is grim.

The future of the company promises to be very corporate. And historically, corporate greed and the arts have never mixed all that well, unless exploitation was factored into the relationship.

Here are a few of my personal issues with Patreon as it relates to my content and personal platform:

• They claim to be a content-creation platform, but they are in a bit of an identity crisis. Sure, they provide tools for posting and sharing content, but what they are truly best at is being a payment processor. They are not very transparent about this.

• When the COVID-19 pandemic arrived in 2020, Patreon gave content creators no significant resources to optimize their efforts to survive the crisis or the economic recession that has followed. I made my own decision to re-brand, optimize my offerings and pricing models, but I did it all by myself. Patreon gave us nothing that we could use as guidelines or even tutorials to survive.

• Patreon has rolled out billing changes that affected my Patreon subscribers negatively. These changes include sudden new changes in fees and billing cycles. The burden was placed on us, the content creators, to relay that info to them, and thus Patreon absolved themselves of the responsibility for that change, even though they are the payment processor in these transactions. Sure, they gave creators templated content for us to distribute to Patrons, but I am appalled that they also wouldn’t message the subscribers directly to back up the messaging from individual content creators.

• Patreon staff discriminated against me inside their Discord, marking my own show-and-tell content as NSFW, while describing straight creators’ show-and-tells of a similar visual style as absolutely appropriate for the corresponding channel. In other words, they told me to take my queer content to the back of the bus when it comes to peer-to-peer interactions on their Discord.

That brings us to changes that are happening today that I want to bring to your attention. This week, Patreon announced internally to creators a new billing cycle that will move away from billing you, my Patrons, on the first day of the month, and instead move to a new cadence where you are charged based on the day you join. You can read this Reddit AMA with Patreon CEO Jack Conte here, but please take a read through the comments from content creators. They show a palpable sense of concern that is only met with corporate platitudes from Conte as a result. Patreon has not confirmed if and when this change will roll out, but the community of Patreon content creators has spoken out about how this will negatively impact many creators, and more importantly, how this could also impact the most important folks in the equation: the Patreon subscribers. 

Jack Conte will be hosting a town hall meeting tomorrow, February 4 to discuss these new changes, and I will attend. But at this point, I am only attending because I want to stay informed.

On my end, I am taking accountability for myself and my readers and fans, and making a big decision: I am leaving the Patreon platform this month.

My biggest concerns about Patreon are their lack of transparency, disingenuous messaging to their clients (us content creators), and the dark forecast of what will come when they align themselves with corporate interests if they go public. When they have to answer to shareholders and Wall Street investors in the near future, there will only be one priority for the Patreon platform: profit. That will put small creators like myself in the crosshairs of their expansion. What’s more, creators who make NSFW and erotic content will surely be marginalized further than they already are by Patreon’s management team. Erotic content makes up a huge part of Patreon’s content-creator base, and I honestly don’t see how they will answer to questions about censorship and freedom of speech, when they are tracking toward an IPO. I do not have any confidence that their platform will act on our behalf.

And for that reason, I am getting out now, before I run into more challenges with the mediocrity that I experience day by day on their platform.

Luckily, I plan to keep making content and making a living as an artist through the e-commerce of my own web sites howtokillasuperhero.net and LEDQueens.com. I only ever signed up for Patreon as a way to augment my income as an artist when I started making YouTube content in 2017 to market my books, and it’s time now to migrate my efforts to my own platform, where I don’t have a middleman who is more aligned with Wall Street than with novelists, filmmakers and other content creators.

So please come with me in my journey, by frequenting my two web sites: howtokillasuperhero.net and LEDQueens.com, where I am the owner and designer of LED Queens Fitness Apparel. Sign up for our email newsletters, and help spread the word that I am making unforgettable art.

I hope that in writing this post you are able to look deeper at the factors surrounding the evolution of the Patreon platform, and make your own sound decisions based on the evidence you collect. Corporations are not inherently malignant, but unfortunately, many corporations slide into corrupt and exploitative practices motivated by greed. Critical thinking is of the utmost importance right now, and this is my time to put into effect my exit strategy from Patreon so I can continue reaching my audience through my own personal business channel. I wish you the best of luck, encourage you to read widely, and to make strong choices.

Cesar Torres